Be Eaten Up with Love

I was humiliated by her!
She even did not have to pretend to me since I was just a useless vase that only
depended on sleeping with men in her eyes.
I suddenly wanted to tell her that it was a truth I joined the company by sleeping
with a man. And I slept the man you cared the most... Wayne Gilbert!
However, I endured the impulsion. I did not argue with her for the moment.
In the evening, Sally invited us to dinner. I didn't join them with an excuse. She
won't keep me since we had an unpleasant moment in the morning. She said to
me perfunctorily," Take cares." Then she went to the dinner with them.
When I got back home, I went to buy some foods with Merlin and cooked a
delicious meal which looked good, smelled good and tasted good.
I told her about the things between Wayne and Sally briefly to Merlin during the
time we were cooking.
Merlin was so angry that she even wanted to kill Wayne since she heard the
story," Lydia, are you stupid! The meaning of Wayne is quite clear! He is just
playing with your emotion! Sally is the one he will marry. Don’t be hot-headed and
sink into it! There is no different between Wayne and Richard. Even though
Wayne looks elegant and virtuous, when he turns against you, you will be just
like me. People will yell to kill you like you are a rat running through a street!"
My cooking hand was frozen for a second and I had a bitter smile," I knew. I
knew that he won't marriage me or give me a family from the beginning. But I'm
thinking that he is not married now. I have the chance to be together with him
since he is not married. Merlin, do you know that I'm exhausted. Wayne is like a
delicious ice cream to me. I can even break my head and bleed for this ice
cream!"

Merlin said with an expression of hating iron could not turn into steel," One day,
you will cry. But Lydia, I understand your mood. I fell in love with Richard since I
was hopeless with my tough life. He suddenly appeared and guided me like a
lighthouse. I relied on him and I thought I found the love."
"Merlin, leave my business alone and just let it goes on."
At the table, when we were eating, my phone rung.
I glanced at the phone enquiringly. My hand taking the chopsticks trembled when
I saw that was Wayne calling.
"Are you going to take it?" Merlin asked.
I shook my head. There was only one reason Wayne would call me, to sleep with
me!
I could not face him with smile with the mood I got. And I could not go to his
house with him pretending nothing had happened. I was afraid of that I could not
help to ask him that was he really going to marry Sally.
I turned down his call and put away the phone then continued the dinner.
However I did not expect that Wayne was persevering and calling again and
again. It did not get quiet until I turned off the phone.
When we finished the dinner and Merlin was cleaning the table, a knocking came
through from the door.
I stunned for a second and looked at her with a bad expression," Could that be
Wayne?"
Merlin lifted her lips," What's your guess? How many people know that you are
living here? Exclude people that will not find you at this time and the one left is
the most possible one."

I opened the door and looked at the man standing at the door enquiringly. The
man had a furious expression and he seemed to come to fight!
" Who are you?"
"I'm not here for you, I'm looking for that bitch Merlin!"
I turned my head to Merlin.
She was stunned for a while then the expression on her face turned to screwy
gradually. Her eyes full of fire of anger seemed was going to killing the man in
front of her.