Novel Lived
Chapter 70
Chapter 70
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After taking medicine for a while, Jiang Zhenhua regained his strength. Seeing this, Jiang Chengyan pulled Ling Huaan away to leave. Although he was still a little worried, he didnt want Ling Huaan to be wronged here.
Jiang Chengyan, you bastard. Are you trying to make me mad?
Jiang Zhenhua clutched his chest, looked at Jiang Chengyan, and said, have you ever thought about what others would think of you if you let the world know that you are gay? How can you stand in this society in the future?
Seeing the two of them start to draw swords1 again, Ling Huaan hurriedly pulled Jiang Chengyans arm and whispered, uncle has a heart condition, dont be impulsive.
Jiang Chengyan took a deep breath and said as calmly as possible, Im gay. I was born with it, I cant change it. If you feel ashamed, then lets dissolve our father-son relationship. I wont ruin my happiness for the sake of strangers opinions.
Why did I give birth to such a disgrace as you!
Yes, I should have followed my mother to die. So you would be satisfied, right? Jiang Chengyans voice was choked up.
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Ling Huaan pulled Jiang Chengyan behind him and said calmly, Uncle Jiang, I dont understand the grievances between you two, and I have no right to speak. But now he is not only your son but also my lover. Youre hurting him so much, I cant stand to see it, so I had to say a few words.
Who are you? There is no place for you to talk here. Jiang Zhenhuas tone was full of contempt and disdain.
YouLing Huaan grabbed Jiang Chengyan, his tone remained calm, Uncle Jiang I call you uncle, first because you are Chengyans father, and secondly out of courtesy. Although my family is average, I understand basic manners. I think uncle Jiang must be angry, so youre not choosing your words.2
Ling Huaans words directly blocked Jiang Zhenhuas words. He glanced at Jiang Chengyan, seeing he snorted coldly but didnt stop Ling Huaan.
Some time ago, Chengyan was involved in a case of dismemberment. The deceased was a homosexual. Because of his parents, he had to deceive the marriage and have children to fulfill his parents wishes. But he was killed and dismembered by his wife. Do you want such a tragedy to happen to your son?
Jiang Zhenhuas eyes flickered, obviously listening in, but remained silent.
I know we are different from others. When we found out, we also had lost our way, also had a painful struggle. But Uncle Jiang, do you know what kind of cruel cognitive process we must go through to get to this step?
Jiang Zhenhua looked at Jiang Chengyan with less anger and more heartache in his gaze.
Uncle Jiang, we also desire to be like normal people. To find a beloved one and live an ordinary and common life. Are we not worthy just because we are different from others?
Jiang Zhenhuas eyes began to waver. His gaze towards Jiang Chengyan softened a lot, but he remained silent.
Uncle Jiang, although we cant be parents, we can understand the ardent hope parents have for their children. All parents in the world hope their children can study well, be admitted to a good university, and find a good job. But what is it all for? It is only because they want their children to have a good life and live happily. Isnt it the same for you?
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Do you know what kind of hardship you will encounter in the future?
Its clear when we decided to be together, we thought about what we would encounter in the future. Uncle Jiang, we dont care about strangers opinions, what we care about is the attitude of our relatives. Captain Jiangs mother died young, and you are the only one closest to him in this world. If you discriminate against him, how sad should he be?
Jiang Zhenhua was silent, no matter how many harsh words were said, Jiang Chengyan was his son, his flesh and blood. Also, because of Jiang Chengyans mother, he had always felt guilty about Jiang Chengyan, so Jiang Zhenhua had to admit that Ling Huaans words did shake him.
Ling Huaan could feel the change in Jiang Zhenhuas attitude. He couldnt help but breathe a sigh of relief and waited quietly.
After a long while, Jiang Zhenhua finally let out his breath and said, You havent been home for a year. Go home for a New Years Eve dinner today.
I Jiang Chengyan wanted to refuse but was stopped by Ling Huaan. His voice changed, and he said, Huaan has limited mobility, so I will send him back first.
Jiang Zhenhua saw the interaction between the two. When he saw that he was indeed his son, who would argue with him at every turn, actually obeyed Ling Huas words, he felt very uncomfortable. However, it was not easy for him to ease his relationship with his son, so he didnt say much.
After leaving the teahouse, Ling Huaan and Jiang Chengyan returned to the first floor to choose gifts again and went straight home.
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After putting everything in place, Jiang Chengyan hugged Ling Huaan and said sullenly, Huaan, Im sorry, you have been wronged.
Ling Huaan smiled, shook his head and said, Its fine. Its you, dont blame me for interfering in the affairs between you and your father.
Huaan, do you want to hear the story about my family?
Ling Huaan stopped Jiang Chengyans waist and said gently, If you want to talk, I want to listen.
My mom and dad are from the same village, considered childhood friends. Two of them grew up together, from elementary school to high school. They are studying in the same school. They have a good relationship. They also agreed to take the same university examination. As they wished, they came to the big city together. They successfully graduated from university, worked smoothly, and got married smoothly. They continue to work hard, from renting a house to buying a house and starting a company, in just five years. Life is getting better and better, and my mother is pregnant, but my father is getting busier and busier. He comes home in the middle of the night every day, full of alcohol. At first, my mother didnt care. She also loved my fathers hard work with her big belly, which caused premature birth. My mother called the ambulance and went to the delivery room by herself, but he was drunk and unconscious.
Did your mother tell you all this?
En. Jiang Chengyan replied in a dull voice and said, Later, my mother found out that my father had another woman outside. His so-called overtime and socializing were all with that woman. My mothers heart broke,, and wanted to divorce him, but she endured it because of me. My father, however, not only did not reflect on the situation but also became more and more aggressive. He didnt even come home for a few days. After a long time, my mother became ill and depressed. When I was eighteen, she finally couldnt bear to commit suicide.
That third person is your stepmother?
Over the years, he has changed countless women, and Li Miaozhu is just one of them. But she is more capable than my mother. At least after she entered the Jiang familys door, my father restrained a lot outside.
Jiang Chengyan feels tired, he lay on Ling Huaans shoulder, and he said, Huaan, I really cant forgive him.
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Ling Huaan patted Jiang Chengyan on the back to comfort him, If you dont want to forgive, then dont. Dont make it hard on yourself. I dont care about how your dad is doing. I dont care about him, its not him that I love. What I care about is you. I dont want you to be trapped in the past. If you cant forgive him, then dont. But I hope you can let go of the past. Im sure your mom also doesnt want you to make things difficult for yourself because of her.
Jiang Chengyan tightened his arm and said, Huaan, its good to have you!
Dont go. Stay with me for New Years Eve.
Jiang Chengyan pulled the distance between the two, took the initiative to kiss Ling Huaans lips, Huaan, lets do it, let me feel your presence deeply.
Noticing Jiang Chengyans uneasiness, Ling Huaan did not say much, he moves to deepen the kiss
Jiang Chengyan lingered in Ling Huaans arms for a while, and said, Huaan, when I go back home tonight. You and Yan Yu are the only ones left in the house.
Ling Huaan was stunned and said, Are you still going back?
En, youre right. Even if I dont forgive him, I should let it go. Whats more, I have to plan for our future lives.
What are you planning? Is it possible that I cant afford to feed you?The corners of Jiang Chengyans mouth rose and said, Do you mean you want me to eat soft rice3?
Ling Huaan raised his eyebrows and said, Yes, Captain Jiang is not willing?
Its too risky to eat soft rice. If you dont want me one day, what should I do?
There is no such day, so Captain Jiang can put his heart in his stomach.4
The corners of Jiang Chengyans mouth were raised repeatedly, it sounds good. You say, how sweet this mouth of yours?
Ling Huaan said solemnly, en, whether its sweet or not, you wont know until you taste it.
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Wng wng wng
The phone vibrated, Jiang Chengyan glanced at the caller ID and connected the phone without hesitation.
Hello, Ill be back in a while. Jiang Chengyan hung up the phone in less than a second.
Your father?
En. Jiang Chengyan rubbed against Ling Huaans arms and said, Only you and Yan Yu are left at night.
Why, jealous?
Jiang Chengyan nodded honestly and said, En, although I know that nothing will happen to you, I just cant help but feel sour in my heart. I cant accompany you on New Years Eve.
Then Ill call Yan Yu and wont let him come over.
No, I dont feel comfortable with you at home alone. With Yan Yu around, I feel more at ease instead.
Ling Huaan said between laughter and tears, then dont go back. Ill go with you early tomorrow morning to pay New Years greetings.
Jiang Chengyan hesitated and said, Huaan, why dont you go home for the New Year?
On New Years Eve, they all visit the elderly, its unnecessary for me to be there. So Im not going, Ill pay my respects tomorrow.
Jiang Chengyan said in distress Huaan, I will never let you celebrate the new year alone in the future.
En, so are you still going back tonight?
Go back. After all, I have promised. Its better to talk about it with my dad. Starting from next year, we will celebrate the New Year together. For this year, let it off once and spend it with Yan Yu.
Okay, its good to go back. But your father has a heart condition, and today is New Years Eve. Please bear with it for a while. If you really cant bear it, come back. Im waiting for you at home.
Jiang Chengyan hugged Ling Huaan tightly, en, this is my home, our home.
The two of them had a little more fun for a while until Yan Yu came over, Jiang Chengyan reluctantly drove home.
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Yan Yu did not ask much, he pasted Spring Festival couplets with Ling Huaan and cooked New Years Eve dinner. He was busy until 8 p.m. before the meal was served. Although there were only two of them, they still cooked a table full of dishes. The two watched the Spring Festival Gala while eating, and occasionally chatted a few words. Although it was a little deserted, Yan Yu was very content.
The bell rang at twelve oclock in the evening. At this time every year, Ling Huaan would go to the window and listen to the sound of fireworks outside. In his mind, he recalled the picture of watching fireworks as a child. Yan Yus faint voice described the shape and color of the fireworks outside in his ear.
The sound of the door opening and closing came, and Jiang Chengyans voice came from his ears, Huaan, Im back.
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Cafes Memo :
So the next chapter will be a new arc! ( )
And I will be so busy again this week, so the next chapter maybe will up on Sunday or Monday. (<)
See ya!
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- the idiom means a state of mutual hostility
- Means to speak incoherently; to ramble; to talk irresponsibly
- Means A person who lives depending on others may be his spouses parents. In China, it is usually a man who depends on his life by his wife.
- Means to treat others sincerely