I Don't Want to Be Loved

Chapter 212 – Why did you do it? (1)

Translator – Yue

T/N: These are memories from Igor’s past life.

“Why?! Why did you do it?!” After leaving Rihannan’s cold corpse, Igor ran off to find his mother. He was furious. “She just lost her baby but you didn’t care! You didn’t show her any mercy and simply threw her in prison! Why?! I’m asking you, why did you do it?!”

To anyone it would seem that Rihannan had just witnessed her husband being unfaithful to her. Immediately afterwards she lost her baby in an accident. That would be enough to scar her for life. However, the Queen Mother did not show her any pity nor mercy and had her put in jail.

Igor couldn’t believe that his own mother would do such thing.

“I’m asking you, why did you do it?”

Igor grabbed her by the shoulders and shook her. He could barely hold back the urge of strangling her.

“You did that! You caused this!” the Queen Mother pushed Igor’s hands away and screamed at him. “It was you who forced mi into it. You put me on that spot, and you cut off all possible escape routes around me. Did you ever stop to think how a cornered woman would eventually bite her hunter?”

“What do you mean by that?” Igor whispered, but the Queen Mother’s rage could not be stopped. She continued yelling at him.

“The doctor said you’d not wake up again. He said that even if you did, the blow to your head was to severe you would not be able to continue living a normal life. What else could I do in that situation? Everything would be ruined if you died. What else could I have done?!”

If Igor had died, the crown would go to Count Clovis. That wouldn’t have happened if Rihannan’s son was alive, but the baby did not survive.

“Is that why you teamed up with Leticia?”

“Leticia came looking for me. She said she had your baby in her womb.”

Igor let out a crazed laugh. He could not believe what he was hearing.

“My baby? I never slept with her, not even once. How could she have a baby with me?”

“I knew the child wasn’t yours but it didn’t matter. Leticia was pregnant and everyone knew that you’d been unfaithful to Rihannan with her.”

Igor’s face froze. He could now piece together his mother’s plans.

“Anyone would believe that Leticia’s child is really yours. It doesn’t matter who’s the real father. If a baby was born from a woman who had an affair with the King, everyone would automatically assume that it is from your seed. The problem is…”

“Even if that child was born, it would be a bastard.“

“That’s right. Even if everyone agreed that it is a baby born from your seed, he’d lose the right to the throne if he was born a bastard. That’s why, I had no other choice. I did what I did to Rihannan…” The Queen Dowager covered her face with shaking hands. “I had no other way of crowning Leticia Queen as soon as possible. To do so, I had to get rid of Rihannan, strip her from her title as Queen…”

“That’s why, even if it was you who provided Chrichton with national secrets, you framed Rihannan. You did it to incarcerate her and force her into drinking poison.”

Igor’s voice had suddenly turned eerily low and menacing. However, the Queen Mother did not realize this yet as she was too busy shaking her head.

“No. I did not poison her. Leticia did that on her own without my consent as soon as she found out that you woke up. Please, believe me!”

“Believe you, uh…”

A laughter exploded throughout the room. A laughter so sinister, void of any other emotion… Only then did the Queen Dowager raise her head to look at Igor’s expression. His gaze was icy and filled with deep hatred. It wasn’t the look of a son towards his own mother. It was a gaze directed at one’s worst enemy.

The Queen Mother unconsciously stepped back.

“I did not want things to end this way either. You know how much I loved and cared for that girl!” she could barely speak, frozen with fear. “If you had only done what I told you, this wouldn’t have happened. If you hadn’t allow rumors of your affair to spread, either, this wouldn’t have happened! In the end, Rihannan’s death is your fault!”

Did Rihannan really die because of him? Igor thought of this and immediately accepted it. His mother was right. Rihannan died because of him. She fell down the stairs because of him, and lost her baby because of him.

If she hadn’t lost her baby, then things would have turned out differently. As Queen, she would have been able to retain her power for the sole reason of having the heir within her womb.

But the baby was gone, and she died soon afterwards. Because of the rumors with Leticia, he had given his mother an excuse to kill her off.

“Do you have any idea how much pain I felt in my heart after making that decision? I treasured that girl above anyone else in the world. I welcomed her as my own daughter. That’s why I’ve been so kind to her all these years, even if she was infertile. It had not been an easy decision!”

Her words had some truth in them. The Queen Mother loved Rihannan in her own way. However, she loved power more. She would not let anyone get in between herself and her last chance at keeping power. After all, the reason why she pressured Igor to choose Rihannan and marry her quickly was so they could conceive and heir for her to control.

The Queen Mother was blind with avarice, and there was nothing that could blind a person to that point than the desire for something they once had in their grasp, especially if it was that much power.

Since the power she had worked so hard to obtain was on the brink of disappearing, the Queen Mother placed her ambitions above the life of any other person. Even the lives of her own son and daughter in law.

“I think I can understand you a little better now, mother.”

Hearing those unexpected words, the Queen Mother felt extremely happy. “Yes, thank you, Igor. Thank you for understanding. Ah, it’s a pity that things turned out this way.” there were tears running down her cheeks as she approached Igor. “But I’m glad you woke up safe and sound. It’s a pity what happened to Rihannan, but even then, after so long…”

She couldn’t finish her sentence. A long dagger was deeply stuck on the Queen Mother’s stomach. The Queen Mother looked at herself, then at Igor, unable to believe what had happened.

“I… Igor…”

“Now I understand I’m exactly like you, mother.”