Chapter 240: Already too late. [1/2]
After the Simons and the White Guard left.
There was an awkwardness that remained between the eight of us present.
We had basically already confessed to each other, but technically we hadn't. I wonder if Noelle and Earl created this situation on purpose. If left alone, I would have tried to be vague, still traumatized by my past.
Caroline really fucked me up badly. For years, my self-esteem was non-existent. I could have gotten a hooker for a quick fuck, but the mere thought of being with a woman became difficult.
I already had trust issues with women because my mom left. When I got cheated on, I broke. My best friend cucked me and I was robbed of the woman I adored.
I lost all faith in people as a result.
Unable to connect emotionally with anyone, I spent my college years just existing. When I got a job, I thought things would get better. It didn't. I was making pennies while being worked to the bone. Plus, the people in my office were all assholes.
It wasn't like I wanted to be around them anyway.
But after I died, everything changed. I now had friends, I was able to reconnect with my family. And most importantly, I had a harem of women who wanted to be with me.
Since the women were the ones who bore the children, polygamy produced more children than polyandry. It wasn't sexism, it was factual biology.
However Noelle's negative points about harems being unfair to women were true. The girls all knew this, yet they all claimed to be okay with it.
As a man, no one would be happier than me. Each of the Sirens was special to me. They were all extremely attractive and had personalities that I adored.
At first, I was just grateful to them. I couldn't have survived the enlistment if not for their help. However, the more I experienced Hellsgate, the more I sought their comfort.
Like a lie, the despair in my life disappeared. On my deathbed, I had no goal, no purpose, I merely existed.
But now? I had a family, a purpose, and a future to achieve. All because the Sirens had been with me that night.
Overwhelmed with gratitude, I went to each of my girls and embraced them. There was no lust or desire in my hugs, just pure love and affection.
I said nothing, just enjoyed their warmth. At the end of my hugs, I motioned for each of them to have a seat.
My brief show of affection melted away the awkwardness. But even after a few seconds, no one spoke. It was as if everyone wanted to savor this moment of bliss for a few more seconds.
As much as I wanted to do the same, we had too many things to deal with, so I started the discussions.
"Before anything else, I wanted to tell you three things. First. I am in love with all seven of you. I do not know when it started, but by the time I realized it, it was too late. I can no longer bear to be separated from any of you.
"Second, I know it is selfish, but I cannot choose just one. I want all of you to be mine, but I expect you to share my affection. Even if you hate me for my ridiculous demands, I would not complain.
"And third, I know I am being unreasonable, but I am willing to use the rest of my days to prove to you all that I am worthy of you. Please stay with me, everyone. I need you all by my side."
My words just now were the epitome of being human garbage. I expected fidelity, but I took on seven women to have a relationship with. It was impossible to love all of them equally. It was impossible not to have problems among them. experience mv,le,mp,yr content
But I was greedy. Their smiles were mine, their bodies were mine. Their love belonged to me forever. I would crush anyone else who got their attention. I would probably slaughter anyone who even tried to gain their favor.
My body hungered for them. I wanted to taste them and drown in the ecstasy as I loved them. I wanted to ravage their bodies while they screamed my name. I was the only one worthy of them. And only beauties of their caliber were worthy of my affection.
I wanted to devour them. Each and every inch until they could no longer live without my touch. And then I would bask in bliss as I spent my days happily in their bosom.
I could feel it. My desires were slowly consuming me. Whether it was because of malice or my own wretched desires, I didn't know. In fact, I no longer cared.
I forced them into this situation like a bastard, knowing that they loved me. This was the reason why they said that the first one to love loses. And I knew that my actions were beyond malicious.
But I could not help it. I knew deep inside that I would never be happy if even one of them was missing. Maybe the dreams I kept seeing were to blame. But I no longer had the option to back out.
I didn't want to resort to violence, but I was already at the point where I was that desperate. My body shivered as I waited for their reaction.
The Sirens all looked at each other before nodding, then they all spoke in turn.
"Dearest, I speak for everyone when I say that the words we spoke earlier were our true feelings. Originally, we wanted to monopolize you, but reality is complicated. While it is a shame that we have to share, our desire to be with you trumps everything."
"You are our destiny husband, the reason we are here and the reason we continue to move forward is all because of you. Like a beacon, your light has helplessly drawn us all to you."
"After all, considering what we are, Possum, only you are stupid enough to want slaggers like us in the first place. No matter how I look at it, we should be the ones thanking you."
"Beloved, just as you have a feeling of unworthiness for us, we have a feeling of unworthiness for you. The greatest of men have always been sought after. Besides we are no saints, we each have a reason for seeking you."