Chapter 19: Self Blame
Emily could give form to light, turning it into a deadly weapon.
In the past, she had never trained in her ability, resulting in a lack of control over it.
This made every one of her attacks a burst of power that left her tired and weak afterward.
And on that day, she had used it repeatedly until she fainted. When she woke up, everything was already too late.
"You don't need to change the topic; I know this is my fault."
Alex frowned at her words. "I love you, Emily, but you know this attitude of yours always annoys me.
Enough with the self-blame.
If you want to find fault, we can find it in everyone involved, but it's useless.
Does that really matter?
Even if we know whose fault it really is, will it change the past? So stop it already."
Alex had tried many ways to comfort his sister, from talking to her gently, patting her head, and listening to all her complaints, but in the end, he realized it would never stop, except by some miracle, if their father returned.
Emily's lips sealed shut, her eyes turning teary for a short moment, but she blinked them away and took a few breaths to calm herself.
Alex shook his head; even as a two-star hunter, his sister was always like this.
He worried about what might happen if one day she fell in love with a bad man and got all emotional about it.
'Well, that's not my business. It's her life. She's not a kid anymore. Worse comes to worse, I will just remove the man,' Alex dismissed the thought.
"So, have you calmed down? Can you answer me now?"
"With such a comprehensive system, if we can provide proof, like a few people who succeeded in cultivation, I am sure we can negotiate not to disclose the information.
The possibility of making everyone an awakener is just too significant for them to miss out."
"Alright, make the guild then, Emily, and if you need anything, just let me know."
He then gazed at his sister deeply.
"Don't push yourself, okay?
I am worried about you. I don't want another person to disappear from the family.
And if possible, meet up with Mom makeup already.
Both of you are so helpless. You know why she so adamantly rejects the idea, but it's been five years.
Just don't talk about anything about hunters and guilds when you meet her."
Emily turned silent; she also wanted to make up with her mom, but she knew how it would turn out.
"You know what Mom will say. It's not like I am the one who brought up the topic with her."
"I will talk with her too; just don't be so hardheaded.
Honestly, you take after Mom more; both of you are just so adamant when you've decided on something."
"Hmph, you talk like you're not like that, brother," Emily said with a pout.
In her eyes, Alex was even worse in that aspect; when he found a goal, he would stop at nothing to achieve it, although it rarely happened.
"At the very least, I am not adamant about something that is useless.
Both of you know acting like this will just hurt each other, but you keep doing it.
Well, forget it. When do you think you can give me the weapon?"
"I can get it tomorrow, bro, or if you really need it now, I have some with me here."
Alex shook his head, knowing his sister had probably offered the gun she was currently using.
"No need, just give me a new one tomorrow, not the one you use.
Then make a meeting with the three-star hunter; I will meet them directly."
At first, he wanted to let Emily handle the hunter's association entirely, but after hearing about so many things happening in the world, he felt the need to meet them directly and confirm the hunter's intentions.
"Sure, bro, then I also want to meet the woman who made you do all this," Emily said with a chuckle.
"You can't meet her, Emily."
"Eh, why? Does she have a poor background? Are you afraid I will bully her?"
Alex laughed. "No, you just can't meet her now; she's in some place far away."
"Far away? How far? We can just ride our jet there."
Emily's eyes started narrowing as she felt suspicious.
"Then how will she become your head scientist? Isn't she that Faerith you talked about?"
"No. I told you my relationship with Faerith is just work.
I do have someone I like now, and she is one of the reasons I do this. But you really can't meet her now, Emily."
"Who is she? What does she look like?"
Emily felt really curious, as she never knew her brother's type.
Even after graduation, she knew their mom tried to arrange some girls for Alex, but no matter how beautiful, gentle, and nice the women were, Alex rejected them all.
For Alex, the reason for this was that all the women didn't look at him.
He knew they were looking at his family background and wealth. And that was not what he wanted in his love life.
"Mingyue. She has amber eyes, with long black hair." Alex continued detailing her appearance, making Emily chuckle.
She could see that Alex was really smitten by the woman. "So where does she live?"
Alex thought about it and then answered, "As I said, somewhere far.
I really don't want to lie to you, Emily. Just be patient. One day, I will bring her to meet you and Mom."
Emily thought about it. In the end, she decided to give up. Emily was sure Alex wouldn't be so foolish as to get scammed, but it made her even more curious.
'Then why did he build all this? How is it related to the woman then?
Just what is his goal now? I don't believe it's for the family.'
She tried to ask this question, but Alex shrugged it off again.