My Dearest General: It Has Always Been You

Warning: and still continue :)

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Jiang Jinyan halted and for a few seconds, their gazes were locked with each other, both breathing equally heavy. The man's palm rested on her lower abdomen — not quite reaching that place because she had clamped her legs before he could do so — but the mere knowledge that Jiang Jinyan, her dearest General Jiang, was one with desires as such to venture deeper filled her with embarrassment and nervousness like never before.

"J—Jinyan…" Shi Nian whimpered, a hint of tremble in her voice. The water in the tub had gradually cooled down and the cold air caressing her bare upper body made her shiver. Although she couldn't ascertain how much of it was truly from the cold and how much was from the unfamiliar itch building within her body right now.

Once again, Jiang Jinyan had his forehead against hers. His eyes, albeit hiding the brewing darkness within, still managed to calm her down nonetheless. It was quite magical, now that she thought about it. Being with Jiang Jinyan either offered her serenity or shoved her to the edge of madness — there was no in between.

"Scared?" He asked softly. 

Scared? Her? She wasn't even scared of death, why should she be scared of this kind of thing? Wouldn't it be too embarrassing then? "No." Alas, her voice came out much more fragile and weak than she wished. "Just a bit...nervous." 

Shi Nian licked her lips, it felt slightly swollen now from all the kissing they had done earlier. There was a question that had been resting on the back of her mind and now, she couldn't help but ask. "Have you done this before? I mean with...your ex, Miss Wei…" Shi Nian's tone gradually weakened until the end, it formed into an inaudible whisper. She shut her eyes and cursed inwardly. Stupid Shi Nian, why ask if you're going to feel terrible about that?

Jiang Jinyan frowned as if disliking how she still brought up unrelated people at their intimate moments. To her relief, he retracted his hand on her stomach but not to her relief, wrapped it around her waist and pulled her closer instead. The tub was already cramped to begin with and Shi Nian's landing position earlier wasn't very good thus Jiang Jinyan's pull instantly threw her off balance, causing her to directly sit on his left thigh where the limb was still intact. Panicked, she tried to get off but was held back by the man's tightening hold. "Where do you want to go?"

"That…" Shi Nian stammered. "I'm heavy…"

A scoff. "I can't even feel your weight on me. Shi Nian," She lifted her head at his call and found the man's stare transfixed onto her. In an instant, she forgot what she was going to say. "I have never done this before. Not with Wei Xiameng, not with anyone else, only you." Shi Nian subconsciously held her breath as Jiang Jinyan reached out to take her hand and place it flat on his chest right where his heart was beating furiously. "Can you feel it? My heartbeats are so loud and fast, I thought it was going to explode."

Ba-thump. Ba-thump. Ba-thump. Each thump was powerful and vivid, beating against her palm with an intensity that almost matched hers. 

Shi Nian couldn't bring herself to believe. Jiang Jinyan? Nervous? Despite his words, he looked totally unruffled, sitting there with his arms around her, playing and teasing her body with smooth movements that made her breath hitch again and again. He totally didn't look like someone inexperienced.

"Don't you believe me?" He asked as if knowing her thoughts. A helpless chuckle escaped his lips and an unknown muscle within Shi Nian's lower part clenched again at the sensuous voice. "Of course I am nervous. How can I not?" With his eyes never leaving hers, he brought her hand to his lips and kissed it affectionately. "I am holding the woman I love for the first time, afterall."

Heat crept up her cheeks and her throat turned dry. She could vividly feel the love and devotion oozing out of his eyes. General Jiang — Jiang Jinyan, who never wore his heart on his sleeves, whose thought was hard to guess more often than not, who was known for his deep and scheming mind. That man was currently stripping off all of his thorns and armors, leaving only the softest and most gentle part for Shi Nian to touch, for her to own and do as she pleased.

Shi Nian felt her throat choke up for the nth time today. Seriously, how could such a man exist on Earth? What had she done to deserve him? "I—I believe you…"

"You should." He teasingly pinched her cheek. "We're both newbies in this kind of thing and I am very grateful to learn more about you along the way."

Shi Nian nodded, bliss and contentment filled her chest to the point of exploding. "Me too… Jinyan, I really, really want to be closer to you."

"I know." He chuckled and brushed the tip of their noses together. "I accept the sentiment but still, let me repeat myself. I won't force you if you aren't ready yet. We should proceed at a pace that's comfortable not only for me, but for you also. Tonight, let's stop here. The water is getting—" Jiang Jinyan choked on his words. He snapped his head toward Shi Nian, flabbergasted. Veins popped up on his forehead and he spoke through gritted teeth. "Do you not understand what I have just said?"

"I do…" Shi Nian nodded bashfully, her eyelashes fluttered violently as she took a glance at where her hands were currently touching, her cheek burning from embarrassment and thrill. She hadn't seen anyone's except Jiang Jinyan thus she had no examples to compare it with but one thing she knew was that he was huge, hot and throbbing. She couldn't even wrap her palm around his whole girth. "You're going to be uncomfortable if we leave it like this so...let me help out like...like this, just for tonight?"

"Ha…" Jiang Jinyan didn't know whether to laugh or be angry. He held his forehead, exasperated. Having Shi Nian here with him already tested his greatest endurance and with her soft hands on his hardened member, another wave of flame seethed, riling him up all over again. "You're really going to be the death of me." The desire that he had suppressed with difficulty started to burn again like wildfire, this time it was much more dangerous and chaotic. 

"Ah! Y—You're getting larger…" Shi Nian sucked in cold air. "And twitching too…"

Sometimes, Jiang Jinyan had no idea how to describe Shi Nian. When he thought that she was bold, she would always back out at the last minute but when he assumed she was a reserved and shy person, she would always be able to take him off guard. Just like right now. Seriously, just how many surprises were she going to give her? Breathing heavily, Jiang Jinyan cupped Shi Nian's hands over his manhood and guided the girl's movement. "Here, you should do it just like this… En, you're doing...good ngh…"

He threw his head back and panted, eyes closing at the waves of pleasure that awashed him. "Shi Nian...Shi Nian…"

She peeked at him through her eyelashes, her golden eyes turning misty. She wasn't the one who had something done to her yet somehow, her breathing grew messy and the strength in her grip intensified, pulling out another deep groan from him. She gasped in shock. "Ah, s—sorry, I didn't mean to… Does it hurt?" Shi Nian's words trailed off as soon as she took in the sight in front of her eyes.

Jiang Jinyan had his skin glistening from the mixture of water and sweat, flush staining his skin crimson and lips parting in want. His eyes never strayed from her, unwavering as if wanting to etch every inch of her into his memory to remember it by. And those heavy lidded, ablaze eyes… words weren't enough to describe it. They could always draw out a side of her she didn't know existed. 

Shi Nian gulped, the sound echoed through the cramped space. 

"You didn't hurt me…" He drawled out, his voice extremely thick and hoarse. "Continue."

...She definitely would, even without him asking. Jiang Jinyan liked it. He liked what she was doing to him and that mere knowledge was enough to send shudders down her body. Wetness pooled between her legs but because she was underwater, the sensation didn't seem as conspicuous, it highlighted the itch and unfamiliar throb that highlighted the emptiness within instead.

Heavy gasps and groans erupted from his lips and amidst them was her name, over and over again. His head lolled to her shoulder and he nipped on her skin. Biting, sucking and licking, leaving his marks on them. Warmth leaked onto her palm and he grabbed her tighter, his hips subconsciously jerking upward. 

A whimper erupted from Shi Nian's lips. With her sitting on him, his movement just seemed as if…they were truly having sex. Her eyes were covered by a layer of mist as she bit her lips, aroused. Their movement was getting more and more hasty until Jiang Jinyan's body flinched abruptly, his back tense like a taut bowstring as he stilled, breath heavy against her neck. 

Shi Nian could vividly feel him twitching and throbbing, along with a warm spray that shot onto her palm. Was it...finished? He—He had found his release, right?

"Was it...good?" She asked gingerly albeit it was kind of useless, judging from how well satiated his expression was.

Jiang Jinyan gathered her into an embrace and kissed her lips, long and sweet. "It's the best I have ever had. My baby is so good.." He whispered adoringly.