My Evil Boy Toy

I took the pen but couldn't figure out what to write.

They said Flousians write their dreams and wishes, hoping that heaven would receive the sky lanterns, to see what's written on them and grant them.

For young maidens and bachelors, they wish to find true love and happiness. For those who already found one, they asked for eternal love and for a better future.

I looked at George as he was already writing something.

"What are you writing?" I asked.

He turned to me and smiled before showing me what he wrote. I was surprised and was touched when I read what's written on his lantern.

"Don't you have a wish for yourself?" I asked again.

"I already found mine." He answered.

George was really sweet, direct and honest. I really wish I could return his feelings but my heart and soul belong to Jayden for a long time now. Even if he hurt me a thousand times, even if it would take a thousand years for him to come to me, I will wait for him because he's the only one for me.

"Thank you George."

I sat down on a grassy slope and started writing. I know this is just a tradition but my heart felt like I needed this. I need to at least let out what I have been feeling for the past few days. 

I was happy being here in Flousia with grandpa, Kyle, Emily and Caden. I found a new friend and it's fun to be with him. I felt like I was living in a place with no worries. A place where princes and princesses lived a peaceful life, like in a fairy tale. 

A princess who needed to be saved, found true love by meeting her prince and they would live happily ever after. The normal plot of a royal love story. But mine wasn't like that.

I needed to be saved, yes. I didn't know anything about love and I have never felt the love from the opposite sex. My foster father denied me love and my mom died a long time ago. I found my prince, he's not a real prince but I fell in love. Our story wasn't that sweet and perfect. It was a roller coaster ride with a lot of twists and turns. But despite all that, I would never change it to the boring and typical fairy tale love story. 

George was a perfect guy. A gentleman, good looking, hot and sexy. I know every girl would want to be his princess, but not me.

Don't get me wrong. He's also my type. If I were the Peggy back then, I might have asked him to be my boyfriend. But he's too perfect for me. I have many flaws and one of them was loving Jayden.

He is my imperfection. My weakness. But he is also my strength and the person who could make my imperfect world perfect.

I wanted to see him so bad. I was trying to hide my pain when I left him again the second time. I needed to choose Caden and my family, it was the right thing to do. I guess I'm really selfish for feeling this way. Caden and Jayden were my happiness. If one of them is not around, I would always feel incomplete.

I continued to write down my thoughts and my feelings while George was reading it in his mind. When it's done, he smiled and patted me on the head.

"Come on! It's starting." He said.

When I looked around, thousands of sky lanterns had been released and they were floating in the air. The feeling of seeing those lights slowly flying into the sky was breathtaking.

George grabbed my hand, pulling me near the river.

"This is the best spot!" He whispered before releasing the sky lantern he was holding.

'I hope Margaret finds true happiness.' That's what it says in his lantern.

I watched as it flew away from us and I felt like his wish would really come true.

I took a deep breath and released the small beacon of light in my hand. As I tilted my head up, watching it float through the night sky, I was hoping that my wishes would come true.

There are five things I wrote. One, a long life for my grandfather. Two, the success of Kyle as being the next king. Third, that Caden grew healthy and that all his wishes would come true. Four, that George would find his soulmate.

Lastly, I wrote something like a letter. 'Jayden you're an idiot! Why are you not still here? What's taking you so long? I missed you! If you won't come here, I swear you will never see me and Caden again! I want to be with you forever.' Those are some words I wanted to scream, the feeling I've been suppressing.

A few sky lanterns caught my attention and as if they were surrounding the lantern I have released. I tried to read what's on them. I don't know why I suddenly got curious with the others.

'I'm sorry.' One lantern has that.

'Could you please forgive me?' The one beside it says.

'You are my light in my darkness. The only happiness I knew. The only reason I'm still breathing.'

'I love you. I can't imagine my life without you and Caden.'

'Peggy, please come back to me.'

My heart started pounding when I read those words. My emotions were piling up and overflowing. Tears were starting to flow from my eyes. Is it possible he's here? Where is he? Then I looked around to search for him.

For the past few weeks that I didn't see him, I was longing for him. I was hurt because of Amanda but it was more painful to be away from him. If another woman wanted him, I made up my mind that I would fight for what is mine. He's mine from the first day we met. I'm his from the moment our lips touched.

I know it might sound crazy and that people might really think I'm stupid for loving him. But sometimes, you don't really need a good reason to love someone. When you gave your heart to someone, you gave it completely. Whether he has a lot of flaws, you still see him as the perfect person for you. 

"Margaret." George called, pointing at something or someone across the river.

When I turned in that direction, I saw the man who I've been wanting to see. The man who owned my heart. Jayden.