The Brother Who Hates Me

'Let me help you remember.' The words keep popping on Raven's head. Her eyes were blinking like flickering lights with an electrical problem.

Jordan's face was so close on hers. She can feel the rapid thumping of her own heart. She can clearly see the desire on his eyes. She was about to say something but Jordan already sealed her mouth.

He was gently kissing her. Raven closed her eyes when things suddenly became blurry. She just let Jordan do his way with her lips. He was probing deeper, exploring her inner mouth searching for her tongue to meet his.

He suddenly left her lips to nibble her ear while he whispered, "Make sure that you remember this."

Then he began to kiss her on the neck biting her and sucking. Raven was going nuts with the sensation she was feeling.

Raven was distracted with the ringing of her mobile phone that made her opened her eyes. She must come back to her senses. She quickly pushed Jordan away from her.

She saw him creased his forehead. His dazed eyes were still locked at hers.

Raven cleared her throat, slightly bowed her head down and murmured, "I'm sorry if I messed up last night."

Jordan held her shoulders while making her face him and spoke, "this has nothing to do about last night. I've wanted to tell you this for a long time now. Raven, I like you as a woman. I really do."

Raven was getting what Jordan was saying but she was still in shock hearing those words from him.

"Actually I lo…"

Raven heard Jordan was about to say more but panic struck her and she quickly stopped him with her palm.

"Stop! Don't continue please…"she begged as she looked directly to his eyes.

"I am really sorry Jordan. I don't want something like that. I… prefer that we maintain our relationship like before, as a family. If we became lovers and things does not work out for us along the run… I … I …" Raven was stammering while she uttered the words.

Then she continued, "I don't want to lose another family."

Yes Raven was scared to fail. If everything became a mess she may jeopardize even the relationship with her father. And she was not willing to take that risk.

"I'm..."she wanted to explain to Jordan but she can't find the words.

"Enough already..." Jordan said in a calm tone. Then he called Lou to pick them up.

Raven felt relieved somehow that Jordan no longer pushed the matter. She was really not ready to be in a relationship especially with Jordan.

She then saw Jordan at her side opened one bottle of water, drank it straight in one go and squeezed it as soon as drained, creating a crisp sound.

Raven bit her lower lip and sighed. It started when Sheena had asked her if she likes Jordan. Yes she did and from that day on she started analyzing the pros and cons. She balanced everything out and came to a decision if something like this would happen.

No one can predict what will be the future holds.

She knew her choice was very pessimistic and cowardly at all. She likes Jordan but not yet probably to the extent that she was willing to gamble other things for that feeling.

She was not sure either if she made the right decision or not and if she will regret it later on or not. Or maybe she was not just matured enough to sort things out…

She looked at her mobile phone and the missed call was from Chad then a message followed.

[Raven my flight is tomorrow. Can we at least grab a cup of coffee at the airport please?]

She replied, [Yeah sure, see you tomorrow.]

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All were quiet inside the car. Lou can sense that eerie feeling and aura from his Boss.

'Oh no, he looked like he has been rejected!' He thought inwardly seeing his Boss' long face as if it was suppressing something.

Lou dropped Raven off the apartment and his Boss did not go with her instead he asked him to drive. He asked where to go but the only answered he got was "Just drive…" in a sluggish tone.

Lou knew that Raven was good in rejecting men but it does not occur to him that his Boss will be included among those doomed men. He shook his head, 'Young girls are really a headache.' With his Boss it was a headache and now heartache.

Jordan asked Lou to stop the car. He walked at the park and paused at the pond at his front. He picked up some stones and made several throws at the pond.

He's been like that for ten minutes then he smirked. He did not expect this. His heart was in so much pain right now. He had waited patiently and was rejected just like that. His tears started to fall without him noticing it.

"Urgghh…"

'What a sissy' He thought to himself the let out a scornful laugh. He was too old to act like this.

He understands Raven's sentiments of course. It was her opinion and she was entitled to it. But he definitely can't accept those excuses.

'Give her some more time to mature.' He convinced his inner self. He had decided to give Raven some space on her own to grow. He will no longer pursue her for now.

Then he sighed deeply. But he definitely knew what he wanted.

"Just wait and see. You will end up to no one but only me!"