Chapter 208
Chapter 208
Shen Huaichu had always wanted to hide the part of himself he considered shameful, but Jing Yi always saw through him.
"You're right, I'm very worried about you, to the point where I can't enjoy the joy of your victories," Shen Huaichu paused, "The young me couldn't save my parents, and that makes me even more worried about not being able to ensure your safety."
"......I'm sorry, I failed to keep my promise to trust you."
His voice trembled more and more, as he struggled to suppress the turmoil in his heart, "Because of my existence, you can no longer do what you want freely..."
How could he have the right to ask her to give up anything more?
"I originally thought that not being able to accompany you in doing what you love the most was the most selfish thing I've ever done," he swallowed hard, the smile at the corner of his mouth carrying a hint of self-mockery and bitterness.
"Now it seems, my selfishness goes far beyond that."
Jing Yi stared at him without blinking, her eyes seemingly on the verge of tears.
Shen Huaichu paused for a moment, struggling to suppress the endless pain in his heart, he smiled with tears in his eyes, and spoke with difficulty, "So, I might have to leave for a while."
This was the decision Shen Huaichu made during Jing Yi's period of coma.
He had thought about it, if Jing Yi didn't wake up, he would stay here and take care of her for the rest of his life; if she woke up, he would go and get treatment.
Jing Zeyou was right, it was his arrogance to think that as long as he could control himself enough, he could stand by Jing Yi on the racetrack.
But what Jing Yi cared about was never whether he could appear on the racetrack.
He had once trusted her so much that he was willing to give his life to her, how could he now not even trust her to protect herself?
"When I get better..." he gently wiped away the tears on Jing Yi's face with a trembling hand, "When I get better, I'll stand by your side again, okay?"
By then, he would be able to give Jing Yi a better Shen Huaichu, and he wouldn't be standing at the crossroads of her choices.
As long as he was lucky enough, Jing Yi would still want him by then.
Jing Yi reached out and hugged him, tightening her arms repeatedly, crying and trembling, as if all her grievances were pouring out at this moment.
Jing Yi's voice was choked with sobs, "Shen Huaichu, I still like you very much, very much, very much, but you said you trusted me..."
She loved racing, but she also wanted Shen Huaichu to be happy.
Shen Huaichu hugged her tightly in return, as if wanting to merge her into his very bones, "I know, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." he kept saying sorry, and never said anything else.
That day, Jing Yi cried until she was exhausted, and after she fell asleep, Shen Huaichu looked at the person on the hospital bed one last time, gazing deeply, as if wanting to etch everything in front of him into his heart.
He gently closed the door of the ward, leaned against the wall, and slowly slid to the ground, covering his face, biting his lips tightly, but it was of no use, the corners of his mouth were already stained with blood.
He tried his best to suppress his voice, but his trembling body couldn't hide anything.
...
Shen Huaichu left, which surprised the Jing family.
During Jing Yi's coma, he had been like a walking corpse, guarding by Jing Yi's bedside without ever taking his eyes off her.
That appearance even made Jing Zeyou a bit worried, worried that before Jing Yi woke up, one of them would go crazy.
But now that Jing Yi was awake, he had left instead.
Jing Zeqian said that before Shen Huaichu left, he had talked to Jing Yi in the ward for a while.
Jing Zeyou wasn't sure if it was because of this, but he felt a little less worried about Jing Yi and Shen Huaichu.
Jing Yi liked Shen Huaichu very much, Jing Zeyou could feel it, he had even thought, if Jing Yi gave up racing for Shen Huaichu, should he break them up?
He didn't want to make his sister sad, but he also didn't want his sister to give up her hard-won freedom for a man.
For Jing Yi, this wasn't just a hobby, but her life after breaking free from her shackles.
Fortunately, Shen Huaichu had truly lived up to his previous promise, that if he became an obstacle, he would solve it himself.
Now it all depended on whether the result of his handling would satisfy them.
There was one more thing, they could no longer hear Jing Yi's thoughts.
Jing Zeyou had specifically confirmed with everyone in the family, and they were all the same.
To be honest, Jing Zeyou didn't feel the slightest bit of regret, instead, he breathed a sigh of relief.
He had been very worried about this from the beginning, and also worried that this would affect Jing Yi's health, otherwise he wouldn't have taken Jing Yi to the hospital right from the start.
"Not being able to hear is also good, I've always been worried that this would affect Yi Yi."
Lin Ruiqing didn't know why she could hear Jing Yi's thoughts, and then suddenly couldn't, but since everything had settled, it was the best outcome.
Jing Beicheng nodded in agreement, no one would like to show themselves completely without any secrets.
Jing Zejun had the same idea.
Jing Zeqian felt relieved, "Finally, I don't have to hear Jing Yi cursing me in her heart." Compared to the others, he was the one who least wanted to hear Jing Yi's thoughts, every time it would make him half-dead with anger.
Although now Jing Yi only cursed him out loud.
"You haven't even shaved yet, you look so ugly."
Jing Zeqian glared at the person on the hospital bed, "Who do you think I'm doing this for?!" Although his tone was fierce, his hands still gently peeled the grapes.
Jing Yi's eyes flashed with amusement, and she unceremoniously ate the fruit he placed in front of her.
"What? Shaving takes that much time?"n/ô/vel/b//jn dot c//om
Jing Zeqian glanced at the person enjoying herself unhappily, shaving didn't take much time, but Jing Yi had just woken up, and he really didn't feel at ease, plus Lin Ruiqing and the others were getting older, after staying up for so long, he had them go back to rest first.
The three siblings had agreed to take turns guarding Jing Yi, wasn't it just their turn to start? Even if he wanted to shave, he had to wait for Jing Zejun to bring his equipment.
"What's wrong with that! Even if I don't shave, I'm still a handsome guy, okay!" The people chasing him could line up from here to the end of the world!
Jing Yi laughed until her stomach hurt, watching her wobble, Jing Zeqian hurried to support her, afraid that she would fall down if she wasn't careful.
"Be careful! Don't have such big emotional ups and downs, okay!"
Jing Yi finally calmed down, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, "Yes, yes, our Jing Shao is amazing." With this haggard look, who could recognize him as the second young master of the Jing family if he was thrown on the street?
Jing Zeqian glared at her unhappily, then sat back in his seat, resigned to peeling the grapes.
He occasionally looked up at Jing Yi, his eyes carrying a bit of caution, he had originally been a little worried about Jing Yi's condition, but this person seemed to be fine, wasn't it said that breaking up was like having a serious illness? Some people even felt like the sky had fallen?
Was Jing Yi breaking up?