Why Did I Become the Villainess?

Chapter 369  : Hospital

 I slowly open my eyes and find myself in an unfamiliar room. I frown and immediately get up out of fear. But because I just woke up, I felt my whole world spin because of my sudden movement.

 "You shouldn't move carelessly. Your body is still weak." I heard Brother Pascal say.

 But because I still felt dizzy, I didn't immediately answer him. I only looked at him after my dizziness disappeared.  "Brother, where am I?" I look around and realize that I am inside a hospital room. "I'm in the hospital?"  I heard Brother Pascal sigh. "You know you just collapsed the other day, and you still push yourself until you reach your limits? Don't you really care about your health?" He shakes his head. "We didn't have a choice but to admit you to the hospital because of your fatigue. You didn't eat or drink anything for a day, Csille. You have low blood, so we didn't have a choice but to transfuse blood to you again."

 I nod my head. Then I look around, trying to find Mother and Father. But I only see two maids inside.  Where are Mother and Father?  I looked at Brother Pascal, but before I could ask him where my parents were, he had already told me the answer.  "Aunt and Uncle are busy with their work. That's why they are not here. I am just here to check on your condition." He looks at the paper he is holding. "But it seems like some other Doctor was already assigned to you. I don't think I am needed here. I'll get going then."

 Brother Pascal was about to leave when I caught his arm. "Brother, are you still mad at me?"

 Brother Pascal stares coldly at me before he gets my hands off him. Then he left the room without saying anything.

 I look at the closed door with a bitter smile. They are really mad at me because if they are not, I'm sure they won't let me alone here, knowing I just collapsed again.  "Miss, I'm sure Master Pascal is just busy today. That's why he couldn't stay with you today. I hope you won't misunderstand Master Pascal."

 I looked at the maid who just consoled me just now and smiled reassuringly at her. "I know." I lay on the bed again and turned my back from them.

 I smile bitterly at myself. Brother Pascal is busy today, that's why he can't be with me? More like he is mad at me and doesn't want to see me today. Because if it's before, no matter how busy they were, they would still choose to set aside their work just to be with me.  It is only a sign that I have reached their bottom line this time.  I just wished I could reconcile with them before I became the villainess.

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 I spend my day lying on the hospital bed doing nothing. The two maids tried to entertain me by reading me books or singing songs to me. However, my mood is still down.  "Miss, your dinner is prepared. You should eat it already."

 I look at the maid holding a bed tray with dishes on it. I shake my head and remain lying on my bed. "Can you set it aside for now? I am still full."

 The maid put the tray to the side and stared at me worriedly. "But Miss, you only eat a little with your lunch. If you don't eat your dinner too, how can you get well? Master Pascal told us to make sure you eat dinner. So, miss, please eat your dinner, or else Master Pascal will be mad at us."

 What's the use of getting better if my family doesn't care about me anymore?  I gave them a reassuring smile. Although I don't feel reassured right now. "Don't worry. I will eat if I am hungry." I look at the curtain. The maid told me earlier that there is a balcony attached to my room. "Can you do me a favor?"

 The two maids stare at each other before one maid shakes her head. "Miss, apologies. Even if we want to help you. The Count and the Countess already warned us not to let you sneak out. We will be in trouble if we help you."

 I smile bitterly. I know they will say that. I know Mother and Father will try to ground me again. I look at the two maids and shake my head. "Don't worry. I am not planning to sneak out. I just want to see the moon. Staying in this room for the whole day bores me to death."

 The two maids look at each other before they shake their heads. "I'm sorry, Miss. I don't think we can let you out even on the balcony."

 I look at the two maids. Are they even serious? I only want to enjoy the moonlight, and they wouldn't allow me? What do they expect me to do? Jump from the second floor? I am not suicidal.

 "I know you are only worried that I might sneak out again. But you can be assured that I am not a dumb person who will jump from the second floor and expect I wouldn't have any injuries. So, can you please let me see the moon? That's the only thing I wish for."

 The two maids look at each other again. It seems like they are still hesitating to agree with me. Although I understand where their hesitation is coming from. After all, I just sneaked out yesterday, and if I sneak out again, they are the ones who will be in trouble.

 In the end, I managed to convince them. Although it took me time to convince them.  I am now on the balcony staring at the moon.  I smile bitterly at myself.  Lena, what will I do? My family is mad at me, and soon everyone will be mad at me too. Can I really bare that? I hope you are here with me because I know you're the only one who can understand me. I miss you really bad.  Tears start to fall from my eyes. I don't know what to do anymore. My family is mad at me, and soon I will also lose my fiancée. What will happen to me after? Can I bear the pain of losing everything? Can I bare the consequences of being the villainess?

 I smile bitterly. Everything that is happening to Csille is because of me. The reason why I am facing all of these problems is because of myself too. If I only didn't write that novel, then I wouldn't be here.  I stare at the moon and cry my heart out. It hurts. It really hurts, but I don't have a choice but to pursue the villainess path.

 I was busy crying silently when I heard the two maids talking to each other. I asked them to stay inside the room and told them I wanted some time alone because I don't want them to see me crying.  "Have you heard that his majesty announced that the Birthday Banquet will proceed as scheduled?"

 My eyes widened when I heard them mention Prince Fraser's name. It's the first time I am hearing news about his highness. I didn't dare to ask anyone because I felt ashamed to ask them.  "But doesn't Prince Fraser get injured when they got lost? Is it really okay for him to attend the banquet?"

 "I heard from other people that his highness just got minor injuries because Sir Farren saved him. If not because of Sir Farren, Prince Fraser won't be able to attend the banquet."

 What?! Princess Paisee got injured? But what about the banquet? She is needed there!  "I heard about it. It's really a good thing Sir Farren is there to save Prince Fraser. But it's really sad to hear what happened to Sir Farren and Prince Rufus. I heard they had acquired serious injuries. I don't think they can attend the banquet because of that injury."

 I felt my hand tremble when I heard what they said. Even Rufus is injured? What will happen to the banquet now? Those two were also needed in the banquet. What will I do now? I need to do something to make them attend the banquet.

 However, what can I do? I am here admitted in the hospital while my parents don't allow me to go out? How can I help them? I couldn't sneak out again and force Rufus and Princess Paislee to attend the banquet. That will be a no no.  My parents are still mad at me, and if I do that, I don't know what I will do to reconcile with them after. I also cannot convince Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee to attend the banquet because it will sound weird for sure.

 I heard someone sigh. "But do they already know what happened? Like how serious the injuries of Prince Rufus and Sir Farren? Who is the culprit behind it, or if it's just an accident? I haven't heard any news about it."

 I have been dying to ask this question too. I want to know who is behind all of this? Is it that person? Is he starting to go against Prince Fraser already? But isn't this a dangerous move? That certain someone is not the type of person who will do something reckless like this.

 "Nobody knows. I think his highnesses still haven't released any statement regarding the matter. Or maybe the royal family stops the spread of the news because of the banquet."

 I heave a sigh. There are a lot of things I don't understand right now. Why does this happen? I didn't write this thing. Is it because of that force again? But I don't understand the reason why does this needs to happen.

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 "But aren't they supposed to inform us? So, we wouldn't have to worry. What if it's the act of our nemesis? We have guests from our nemesis Kingdom. What if they do something against us again?"

 "But if they inform us, wouldn't that alert our enemies. I'm sure his Majesty has already made a plan on how to deal with this. So, let's just trust our majesty."

 "What else can we do but to trust them. After all, they are still our rulers, and it's their responsibility to protect us always. I'm sure the royal family wouldn't want to put everyone in danger."  I heave a sigh and go back inside my room. I think I already heard everything I needed to hear. Although I still have a lot of questions, I will just find a way to look for answers some other time.  The two maids immediately stop talking when they see me walk inside the room.  "Dame Csille, do you want to eat your dinner now?"

 I look at the maid who asks the question and shakes my head. Dinner? I don't think I have the appetite for that.

 "I'm still full. I feel sleepy. Can you turn the lights off? I want to sleep first." I get on my bed and lay on it.  "But Dame Csille, it won't be good if you skip your dinner. Why don't you eat your dinner first before you sleep?"

 I look at the maid and frown. "Do you want me to die? You know it's not good to sleep after eating, right? Also, I never said I'm skipping my dinner. I will eat later. I just feel sleepy right now, so I want to sleep first. So, can you please turn off the lights?"

 The two maids stare at each other for a few seconds before the two of them hesitantly turn off the light.  I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but my mind couldn't stop thinking about what I had heard from the maids.  What will I do now? Things are getting out of hand, and yet here I am. I couldn't even do anything to put everything in place.